Alamak....

About probably 8-9 years ago, I would have catogized Espirit as beyond my budget.
But since this past year or so, I can say that I have started to indulge abit loh.

Today I went to Mid val. Yeah I know what you're thinking, "suicidal". Well with God's help for sure, I managed to get a parking space. Couple of weeks ago, I saw this wallet, really nice, leather one. One of the few leather ones that I saw in Espirit. Most of them are like those man made material which also cost about the same.

When I got to the store, there was a huge crowd. Apparently there they were having some huge sales up to 50%. I found the wallet on one of the racks. GREAT AND ITS 30% off.
I took it to the counter and asked them for a new one. Yeah coz the display one had some scratches on it. Ain't gonna pay 100+ for a scratched one. I waited and waited while the sales person at the counter goes thru drawer by drawer. And then punched into the system, and go back to drawers. I overheard her telling another sales lady there should be like 4 more or something. Then after searching for about 5+ min, she gave up and said, she believes its all sold out and that was the only one.

I had to say I don't want it... :(
I could feel my heart breaking but I ain't gonna pay for something scratched unless its like 70% off. :(((

My luck....

And you know what else, alot of auntie auntie buying espirit lah... farni hor!!!! But they all pay cash one.. all the rich ladies.

Anxiety Attack.

Last nite, 5 of us went to Saisaki for Jap buffet. The spread was good. Eat quite alot till i could hardly walk. thats another thing that is sabotating my diet plan

I couldn't sleep last nite, I had an anxiety attack. All kind of stuff going thru my mind but the major concern was the documentation that I hope to get before I go on my mission. But its less than a week, I am not even sure whether I will get them bfore I leave. And to add on to the stress, I haven't even sent the list yet.

At 7am I as at the office already. I quickly go thru my list and then I sent the email to my lead requesting for all the required information/document. Then the whole day went by so fast. i could die. So many things still undone.

And I am on leave till monday. Gosh..I hope everything will go well or else this will be the last of my career.... :(

So stress lahhhhhh...

Safe And Sound

Okay.. Today was the D-day that I was to go back to the Emb to collect my precious passport.

Eventho' it drizzle slightly, I managed to get parking at this place next to the Emb. Walked over and it was a breeze. Just go thru the door, no crowd absolutely. And got the pass and walked right up. Standing in queue. A cute gentleman saw me.. and pointed to me to give my little receipt to the counter. Before that he said, you should sign the back first. I was so shocked such a cutie spoke to me, I just nodded and went to the side table and signed the blady paper and didn't even thank him :( He doesn't even work there, he is was there to collect his visa too.

HAHAHAAA..

Anyways.. passport and visa is all good......
Thank You Lord!!!!!!!

P/S, had my ranking results today.. Good or not ah.....Let me think whether i wanna reveal or not. Never know who's patrolling the blogs.

Harrowing Experience

I wanted to blog about this yesterday but I had some other things to do when I got home hence I wasn’t able to get to it.

Yesterday I had to go to a certain embassy to get visa for my visit to a certain country next month. It’s mainly for work purposes. And since the ruling has changed, I must go in person to get it instead of going through the agent.

Since submission period begins at 9am. I left the office around 10 to 9. I had to do a U turn to get to the side of the embassy. There was suppose to be a parking place next to that Emb. After I did a U-turn and drove for abit, the cars were hardly moving. I could see like something blocking the way infront. When I got closer I noticed that there was a huge crowd outside the Emb. Gosh… But I had no choice rite, coz I need to get this done ASAP. I turned into the car park area next to the emb, the guy waves and say no more parking. DARN!. Have to drive out of the car park and then pass the huge crowd of people - all I believe waiting to get into the Emb.

I parked my car on the opposite side of the Emb and had to walk quite abit to use the overhead bridge to cross over. And walk for a bit more. I was told by a colleague that I am to use the left gate to enter if I am applying for visa. The right gate which had a huge crowd infront was for the national of that country. But the only problem I faced was that the left door is not opened and each time it opened to let a car in, people rushed in and they were chased out. Weird rite??? Anyways.. I tried asking, but the people standing inside the Emb kept saying visa is also at the right gate. Oh my Goodness, I am not going to squeeze thru among those seas of people to get in to get my visa.

In a state of panic, I called my colleague, he insisted that I shouldn’t go to the right gate. And said that it’s the left gate but I told him, they wouldn’t let me in. I was perspiring and panicking. Then I asked one last time to the person inside the left gate and was told once again that I am to use the right gate. At the same time when I was asking there was a gentleman also dressed up in office attire and asked the same question to the man, and the answer was the same. So I called out to him asking him whether he is applying for a visa and he said yes. I told him I said , we should ask one of the guards, we walked to the right gate and started asking but we were ignored and people just kept pushing us. I couldn’t move forward nor say anything and the crowd was like barbarian. At that point, I just felt that I know what its like to be part of a riot. Maybe the feeling is 10 times worse. When the man beside the guard heard this gentleman who kept yelling VISA VISA. The waved us to come forward to go inside.

GOSH I wouldn’t get thru. Everyone didn’t want to make way. They kept pushing me eventho I said excuse to let me thru. The gentleman who was standing behind me.. kept pushing me to move forward and said to me, you have to push your way thru. My goodness… horrible….

Finally got in and another long line begins..

This is the most harrowing experience, scary scary scary…

I still have to revisit the place to collect my passport ….. Please Lord let this be a better experience.

Aiiii

Its now late Sunday Evening. I hate sunday evenings.. coz its just telling me that monday is closer than ever.

I hardly did anything... And worse part of all I don't feel well. I have been sneezing and my cheek bone hurts... eyes are watery. Gosh I hope this will not lead to another sinus infection. these days, i get weary when i see a slight sign of flu.

well.. thats not actually I wanted to blog about. After the trying really hard to maintain the 3kg i lost while i was sick. I have now gained 2 kgs back. CRAP!

Its so hard to maintain what more lose weight.

I seriously don't know what to do. maybe I should start starving myself? Would that really help?

AIIIII.... blues blues and more blues.

Was suppose to go to BKK for some retail theraphy but that has been shelfed as the person I was suppose to go with has FFK with telling me until I asked her.

I am feeling down being single.. and not having friends to even to on a trip with.. DARN...

Its done...

This morning, woke up by 8am and by 9am I was at the dentist.
Today was to be my last appointment for the tooth implant. Yes, the one which cost me a bom.

It was quite painful as I dunno why the gum always wants to grow and cover the cap of the screw. So the dr has to do someting about it and it sure hurt. He kept apologizing which made me feel worse. But.... I am glad its over but it does feel funny tho' maybe coz after not having anything there for more than 6 months, its weird to finally have a tooth there. but it feels flat at the bottom. So I was complaining to my mom that it doesn't feel like the previous crown I had and also the one on my left. Maybe coz i told him that i couldn't grind properly and it felt that one side was higher than the other side of the crown. So he kinda polish it abit.

Anyways.. my mom said.. he is a specialist rite? Are you having doubts on the work of a specialist hehehee.

ok ok lah.. i tahan lah. But i perfectionist leh. beh tahan.. need everything to be proper and nice... darn!!!!!!

The next visit will be 6 mo nths time for him to check whats the condition of the tooth.

Glad its over...

Broadband

After much debate with myself, i finally got broadband. Yeah I know.......
But if i didn't have to be on standby, I wouldn't bother as the dial up work just fine.
I didn't want to drive to work in the middle of nite if I get a call for support rite?

Anyways, how do I feel now that I have broadband. Not much difference but only thing is I spent 8 hours in 2 days watching online korean show HAHAHAHA chia lat or what.

Of course I didn't get the unlimited one. I wanted to gauge how much i will use and such.
So I got the one for 60 hours per month. When I went to apply for it, the guy at the counter sorta reminded me that its for 60 hours ONLY. I was like.. can upgrade later on right? he said yeah of course then he added, budget huh.. hehehe. YEAH LAH have to budget man. or else.... if i don't use that much why have unlimited rite?

I got to save for my bag and shoes fetish man.. MUAHAHHAHAHAHAA

PS - I have been avoiding the mall when I can but unfortunately working in the city is kinda hard but I have been a good girl, coming back straight home after work. haha more like no choice aye.. coz i am on standby for 2 weeks straight. I don't want 2 be lugging certain something all over town...

My Take on this...

As the 49th years of independence draws near.... newspapers will start interviewing people with regards to what they think of the country so far, what they would like to see us as citizens do more, bla bla bla.

Hmmm... so, I believe many of you out there has read so many blogs, articles in the newspapers, esp from thos who has ventured far for better education then decided to stay on to where they thot are green pastures, or some who moved away wanting a better life else where. You might also have read those ingrate who were born here and now berate the country and diminishing it to a minute ant.

I fall to the first category but minus the last bit. When I first came back to this country, I did have all the sentiments these people had. I loved the new country which i have spent 3 yrs in. I wished i could stayed on. Everyday since the day i came back and for the longest time as I can recall, I longed to be back there. But 10 years has since passed.... Do I still feel that way? Yes, once a while I get melancholy and i do think about it.

But I also realized that in the past 1 year, I have to terms with myself, and you know what happens now when I read about what people say about this place? Well granted this place is not eutophia... I don't think anywhere will be euthophia. But then I strongly believe that people who longer call this place home has no rights to berate it. You don't go thru what we go thru every day of our lives. You choose to leave ( except those who had to leave due to circumstances - you are forgiven :P) Anyways.... I believe that this country still has things that are good eventho' somethings irks you like mad. But home is where at anytime of the day, you can meet up with your friends, call your parents, drop by their home. Whats life without all that eventho' you have the most beautiful sky line at your backyard? Or the best quality of air? But when you want to go visit your friends, you can't just drop by but instead you have to call them, or drop hints so that they may eventually get the hint and invite you to their house hahaha. I sound like a cynic don't I. Well I am just giving the extreme examples.

But you get my gist.

So maybe its time, we think how to make the best of this situation that God has put us in and stop whining about how bad things are...(yeah I am big whinner myself, but self control has gotten the best of me lately. Hard but I do my best not to fall into but somtimes it fails but sometimes its successful)

I have a coworker who constantly talks about how bad things are, how she doesn't earn enough money... how she would have been much better off in SG,AU or where ever not. She hasn't been overseas before. She did all the tertiary education here. Thats fine. No one is looking down on your bcoz of that. But stop already!!!! Look around you!!!
One day I showed to her there is this man who guides the traffic infront of the hotel near our office. You can see he stands in the hot sun at 12 noon from goodness knows what time till what time. But in the blazing hotsun (dressed in black), he stands there and waits when car comes by he will guide them. Thats his job every day in and out. How much do you think he gets paid? probably a measly 600-800 a month? or less??

So I told her straight on her face!! be Glad you're not him and think about how fortunate you are and not about how you can't afford that DIOR or GUCCI bag. When this person probably have to think 3 times what he can have for lunch/dinner so he can provide for his family and survive till the next pay check.

I SAY INGRATE!!!! START THINKING AND START LOOKING AROUND YOU. YOu are much more fortunate than most out there... eventho you might complain life is better elsewhere. But since you're here make the best out of it , can you not?! Just do that? Its hard, yeah i have been there. But eventually when you come to terms with yourself, you will find that certain sort of peace within you.

Dont' mean to lecture no one.. but thats my 50 cents worth of thoughts...
:P

Things

I know I haven't been writing anything worth readin lately. Actually, I don't know whats wrong with me really. Sometimes when I am driving or walking around it seems like I have alot to write about but once I reached home, I don't feel like writing at all. Or I forget what i had actually wanted to write about. The forgetfullness is probably due to old age.

Couple of things happened. I managed to move to a new seat which is now more secluded and my monitor isn't facing the highway anymore. Which is good rite? Alittle bit further frm my si tow por also. But now I am seating with a person whom I don't even know i can trust. So everyday I have to keep all stuff in my drawer n leave nothing behind. Before I moved to this new place, I actually bless some holy water. and I have a small benedict cross seating on my table. Quite hidden view actually.

Lately I have been feeling kind down again. About what? I can't really put my finger on it.
Due to this depression, I really feel like buying stuff. Like even stuff i don't need but I feel an urge to buy it.

This month I will also be paying off the last 2 payment of my tooth implant. therefore I am gonna be broke for awhile and this month I would have to dig hard into my savings. :P

I wish this blues will stop singing. But it has been a week and it hasn't stopped.

I am going to a foreign land for assignment next month. I am not liking it either. I have to do alot of preparation before than. Its less than 1 month. I am tired. I hate IT!!!!!!! I hate hate hate double hate it!!!!!!!!!

I also hate having arseholes in my team. One who only want to boss people around but know next to jack shit!

Gosh... i am not in the best of moods right now!!!!!

Also I havebeen going to gym 2 weeks in a row now. Yeah FOC gym at the company hahahaa. Not really FOC lah. I am a member of the recreational club mah. So free loh. I pay member fee once a year. Farni thing is, I am more tired than ever. I thot exercise suppose to rejuvenate you rite? Tak tau ler.. apa yg tak kena ini.

AII please keep me in your prayers that things will be brighten up.

I thot I siow, but some people even more siow

Read this link!!!
19 pair of shoes in a one month.... totally siow, more siow than me. MUAHAHAHHAHAA

http://mystiqangel.blogspot.com/2006/07/of-ringgit-and-sense.html